just realise its been a year since i cut my hair off! also next month will be the first year anniversary of my first tattoo. who would have thought a year on i would have 16 pieces of ink!

okay being destructawoman wasnt a good idea. back is now hammering the hell out of me. on the plus side my head feels happy. maybe i should be in a deconstruction job. heehee

im definatly feeling better. even in my weakened state, with pure anger just helped mum destroy the ferrets old run. just give me a hammer and my anger and the image of my doctors face...it wont take long for me to rip through it. half of it was down by time mum looked up. also was great fun ripping the wire mesh from the wood with my bare hands. good fun indeed.

thank you to everyone who wished me well and kept my mind occupied. im recovering now. normal service hopefully resides soon. got to strengthen my leg muscles again.

yup feeling a bit better today.

would love to be with someone who likes some of the same things i do. :/ but as im a unique kind of freak ;) ah well. time for wrestling.its a repeat but worth watching.

could it be? i think im feeling better. not stood up yet though.

really fed up of being ill. operation: flush out starts tomorrow. im not spending another week like this!

starting to feel like im never going to better. :,(

my body was definatly not ready for codine phosphate yet. pukeorama over here! least i slept more than i have in a while.

feel so alone and empty at the moment. :,/ hate it when this happens.

my number is on my profile if anyone wants it.

commencing mind shut down!

((I think that happened several years ago))

fuck it! if people cant be arsed to reply to me then dont bother at all. fucking fed up of being treated like crap by people i give a damn about. you obviously dont give a damn about me so good-fucking-bye. had enough of people. ive been very ill this past week and its shown who my true friends are. im going to do what i fucking like..dont give a shit who doesnt like it!

im a poorly squishy.

too much annoying me to list. couldnt get to docs today. got to wait till monday. in alot of fucking pain but cant take any codine phosphate till the dihydracodine is out of my system. cranky? bet your life i am!

hahahaha! was out killing rats and the gun went off "accidently" and shot him instead. I call that karma you malicious cruel bastard. Now you know how them poor creatures felt. shame it only accidently went off once. prick!

some lasses need to learn some sense of dignity. you dont have to pose in underwear to be sexy. to me less is more. my profile pic is about as "slutty" as i get. as for putting yourself on fbook in underwear, do you really need that much attention or that lacking in self esteem? does make you wonder.

favourite word of the day... Kinkajou!

TO NON-PET OWNERS who visit our homes.
(1) Don't complain about our pets.They live here,you don't.
(2) if you don't want their hair on your clothes,stay off the furniture.That's why they call it 'Fur'-niture.
(3) Chances are,I love my pets more than i like you.
(4) To you, they are animals.To me, they are family . who are hairy, walk on all fours & don't talk back.
♥ Re-post if you love your pets

loving meerkat manor. seen it before but its still awesome.

today, i will be mainly sorting the shit out on my computer. some of this music has got to come off. want all the shite music off it!

might attempt that sleep thing again. for an hour or so.

my next night out ensemble. (whenever that is). corset will be done tighter and i will be wearing my new rocks. i forgot how heavy and long that skirt is. (its also starting to get too big for me. nooo!)

fuck sake! another person dead due to riots. beaten for trying to put fires out. well done scumbags you have now just got yourselves a murder charge when they find you. *claps sarcasticly* idiots!

OW! FUCKING PAIN! i think its time for a black aniseed schnapps raid!

walking up the stairs i realised i look like a nun! one of the lying twats of my life would have loved this.

got to get to the doctors tomorrow! cant spend another day being miss psycho angrypants.

argh! fucking orange are being a pain today. this is all i fucking need! im in uber cranky nasty bitch mode, be warned!

anyone got a spare body they arent using? good job i decided to not go to bloodstock. to those going please kidnap me a blackie lawless, a abbath and a adrian erlandsson please.

my profile pic is of me as a 3 year old with our mac. Proof that is all in the training of the dog. yes thats a rottweiler. so sod anyones theories about them being dangerous dogs. train them right people!

i think its final. once my rats are gone we are having a rottweiler. mums on board by the sounds of it. she hasnt instantly said no which is a shocker. im having a male rottweiler thats for sure. going to have insuranced and him microchipped. just got to think of a name when i get one. he will be neautered, trained and well loved. my bed will be his too. im excited for the future.

still awake. super cranky bitch later today.

right, net time is nearly out. i wish you all well and hope you all stay safe wherever you are. goodnight all.

layed in bed...in eyewatering pain. the black aniseed schnapps seems a good idea right now.

THE FUCKING BITCH HAS ONLY PUT CODINE PHOSPHATE ON THE PRESCRIPTION FORM! means ive got to piss about going back to the docs to get the other two medications im supposed to have. ive had enough of whittington moor fucking surgery! im going to see the back of them soon! theyve fucked up too much now! ive no money to catch bus or get a taxi to the doctors so im going to have to walk in the state and pain im in now. really angry right now.

right now, the riots can kiss my huge paper white ass. got other things to worry about.

 ((Like what, having one of your rats out-achieve you?))

thank you doctors for putting me on medication that nearly put me in hospital! wont be going anywhere for a while. grrr!

doctors at 4:10pm. got to get my meds.

dear human rights do-gooders. all your medling and suck over the past 20+ years, bet your proud of yourselves now. look what your softly softly attitude is being thrown back in your face. catch the fucking rioters and send them to the most dangerous, poverty striken place on earth...and leave them there. no money, no food, dirty water and no home.

i dont mean to be racist buuut has anyone else seen any white people in the rioting and looting?

on a lighter note. the dulco constipation ad. "for predictable relief when you wake" 1) that cat wouldnt still be under her ass for that long and b) she wouldnt be waking up smiling and slowly getting up. she would be getting up like a rocket and running to the bog!

what the fuck? why bring animals into these riots? The police have loads of other options example - teargas or rubber bullets! using dogs and horses are a big fucking no in my book! if it was america the guns would be out and fire engines blasting the fuckers with a force from the water cannons!

oven roasted mushroom pate on multiseed bread. very nom and the rats agree. doubt my stomach will in a bit.

wont be out tomorrow night. got the pukes and shoots. ring of fire doesnt even cover it! wish my body would give me a break.

 ((Maybe you should give your body a break, from egg custards and Vodkat))

the big brother adverts on channel 5 are REALLY starting to piss me off. just a bunch of attention seeking wankers! now time for meerkat manor and a sandwich.

foobin typical! i want to go out tomorrow night and ive got that bug thats going around. good job the sink is in puking range of the toilet. feel weak.

i have given my uncle a major challenge. the top where i have the reaper on the back is my next tattoo. then im having two dragons on the back of each calf, then the four roses,then having writing for the elements, then having a tattoo of my nanas favourite flower with her name under it, then its the rat version of hear no, see no, speak no evil, then its time to design my full sleeves. yep im addicted! i thrive on tattoo pain.

i love my bed. its just amazing.

podged. lovely sunday dinner. egg custard later.

those moments where you could go around chesterfield with a proper katana and slicing twats heads off! yup in feeling a bit genocidal today. oo sunday dinner smells good!

well, there was naff all on car boot. went into town..finally found underwear i like..in marks and spencers. didnt half get funny looks being in shorts, darkthrone tshirt and trainers. was flash the tatts day. haha

only owe mum £140 now. once thats paid im having another tattoo. still got the itch! got a major challenge for my uncle. going to have a word next time i see him. my boys have the cutest looks on their faces when i go near their cage. really adorable.

got tuesday nights outfit sorted. cash put aside for it. just got to pick tracks i want to hear played. any requests to put on the usb, let me know. lets rock it baby!

o dear! im singing along to kiss! whats happening to me?! nooo! (im watching journeys american top 50 on viva.)

why does steve perry remind me of my ex marc? lol

a litre of mountain dew energy. might need to prepare the bouncy walls! haha.

so to sum up, ameria, which is the richest country in the world, is in debt. a lad got killed in an area where polar bears live in norway. "you thick twat" seems to be the appropriate words. you go into wild animals domain you deserve what you get! you would think humans would know better by now.

((Poor Ameria))

i feel oddly happy. manic stage approaching i sense. also a deep thinking session was needed. i dont need a relationship, dont need a man to be with for life. i am happy on my own with my pets. eventually i will have a dog...because at least a dog will be loyal, affectionate and loving...and yes it with either be a rottweiler, labrador or german sheppard. i just see men as walking dildos now. ive had my time with relationships.

time for bed. sweet dreams all.

i love my family and true friends, my pets and my bed. couldnt ask for anything more.

happy birthday to my boys leland and gray. 1 year old.

just woke up from a random dream about falling, woke up with my arms out like i was trying to stop from falling.

wondering why i have a phone and facebook at all. hardly anyone texts,calls or put anything on facebook. might as well get rid of it.

would love some charitable donations to help me get a 2nd landline put in. i can dream right?

could just drink a gin and tonic with a slice of lemon.

okay, next tuesday. Im super dooper definaly going out to blue bells alternative night. even if ive no cash im there! starting to become a hermit and that has to stop!

i would really like cuddles. real life ones.

blah blah blah blah. got a stressy few days ahead.

 

((How?))

getting sick of these meds, got a burning feeling just at the bottom of my throat. grrr!

for my tea its steak chips, lamb shank, steamed veggies all with a lamb and mint gravy.

 ((Not mentioned: an onion ring-stained trifle bowl full of mash and a 2 x400g fruit and nut bars used as bread))

i think that the symbol for peace should change to a set of boobs! men and woman. gay,lesbian, bi or straight love boobs. BOOBS FOR THE NEW SIGN FOR PEACE! you know it makes sense.

had trout for the first time. the ferrets like it, i think its okay. couple of small fillets, salad and boiled potatoes. yum!

 ((Not mentioned: a trifle bowl of onion rings, 2 litres of coke and a Vienetta))

so whats the gossip? what have i missed?

I HAVE NO CREDIT OR FREE TEXTS. NO NET EITHER. CALL ME IF YOU NEED ME...

i cant reply to texts as i have no credit or free texts.

I WANT A VAMPIRE ROTTWEILER!

would like a kind person to go on the corset-uk site, go to COTD and order me the emerald longline underbust 36" please! i will pay you back my next payday! its the £20 one. pleeeease! id love you forever.

people annoy me at times. putting some things over other things that are more important then moan about stuff thats their own fault. get your priorities in the right order!

me and my boys nomming crumpets. i love my boys, they are the only males i need..(as well as my male family)

*sniffs* i need a shower. i stink!

okay boredom has set in. im going to poke the people i find do-able or very clothes ripping of hot!

maaaan its too warm. decided my next tattoos are. having 4 roses to reprisent my brothers, my mum and my dad. just need £80! haha. got to pick a design to reprisent my nana. going on back of calf.