well thats the brothers rats showered and blow dried. all were pretty good. was giggles and keikos first shower. giggles was a bit shocked by it at first but was pretty good. keiko, a good girl as ever. Betty though was not impressed but she is all fluffy and white again. XD
think im going to have to learn to cook properly. Getting more and more difficult to find things to eat in supermarkets these days. up goes my food shopping bill!!!
Ten points to the person who can say what my favourite colour is.
Rang dwp. They know fuck all but told me payments are still "live". Just want to know already. :'( dont know what to do or say anymore. Sorry ive been withdrawn with everyone. Plus side psychiatrist next tuesday
this is fucking torture. i juat want to know the results of it already! starting to stress me out and get me down alot. its okay atos and dwp...its only my life your fucking about with. take your time and leave someone with mental issues to stress out/panic/get worse through not knowing. arrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Fed up of looking like i do at the moment. Fat,old and ugly. (roll on 5th march and medication dose uppage)
feeling a bit self destructive today. back under the quilt i go.
johnsons baby shampoo vs died black hair. baby shampoo wins. my hairs a yukky brown/black colour. got to wait a couple more weeks before i redo the black.
t remembering the time at rock city where i was getting screamed at by mates not to go and squeeze a guys moobs. me being me decided to do it anyway. ran up, went *meep meep* on his chest then legged it. jeez i was mental back then. if anyones sees that version of me please send her back!
ive got a new phone and dont have some of your numbers if you have mine please text me and say who you are.
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feel really low today. :(
Has anyone else seen the adverts for that dating show starting on E4 called "my little princess"? years ago that would have been my dad!! it does look funny to be fair. oh and never use johnsons baby shampoo on died black hair. i know have strange black/brow hair and thats only after one use. still debating the green hair for my brithday.
so much stress lately. still dont know the results of the medical and its been 3 weeks :/
think its time for a walk. :)
wow. suh a nice thing to know ive got mates who give a shit. been gone off here since saturday and no-ones noticed. Also im not going to even try to help anyone anymore. i get it thrown back in my face. also when will people get it into thier heads that im not interested in getting wankered anymore...some of us have grown up!
Well i manage to shock my mum today. i willingly picked up a child. XD even got him to high 5 me. bless. he got a jelly belly bean as a reward.
lonely im in the "would love some company but no-ones going to bother coming round anyway so whats the point" in too much pain to go anywhere. argh my stooopid head :/
time to go get all soaped up and suddy. thats right....its showertime!!
Size 14/16 women. this corset is currently on auction for £10.49. on corsets-uk they are SUPER expensive. this is a bargain. if i was this size i would be bidding on it. the shop has a smaller size for auction too.
well thats an expense i dont need. Got to get a new graphics card for this comp. slow as fook on the facebook games (other profile not this one.) :/
Grrr! Wake me up this time tomorrow instead!
I do not celebrate valentines day. Never will. So please do not send me any messages about it.
Ba na na na na na na na bed day! Not in the mood to socialise today. Phone will be on silent.
I want some decent photos taking. Shame i look like a cave troll. XD
Nearly getting taken out by a taxi driver whos driving like hes still in his native country! 30mph means 30mph knobhead. Not nearly 50mph on a main road thats got parked cars on each side and overtake the person doing the speed limit in the rain! Had to pull back or he would have taken my front end off! Came back as i could feel road rage setting in. Should have chased the fucker down!
why is it...when the lad lies his arse off and leads you on for weeks on end. you are the one not to be trusted?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! WANKER comes to mind!!
well after two days of having plaited pigtails in...i now look like a poodle!!!
Well from now on, i no longer believe in "nice guys". All men are knobheads until proven otherwise. (excludes most of my true male friends and my family). No longer want to hear the words "im not like other men" because its bullshite.
fed up of being alone. i miss texting a certain person but i'll never trust him again...and its a month till i see the new psychiatrist and i feel myself slipping deeper and deeper into sadness. im sorry my statuses have been so low lately, looks like you will either have to put up with it for another month or just remove me. im trying to be strong, just bare with me.
fucks sake. wish i could conquor this fear and panic about going out on the bike on my own. :/ ive nowhere to bloomin go anyway. fucking mental health shite...i fucking hate it. ruins my life.
feelin a bit down. seeing all the people who have someone who are content and happy is just making me think. :/
Still hazy from the meds. Would love cuddles and a shoulder rub.
Feel so empty inside emotionally.
((not physically tho))
pound sho in the precinct in townhave WONKA SWEEEEEEEETS!! Nerds and gobstoppers. big boxes for £1!! yes ive reverted to being a big kid. Oh and according to the physio, i have wonky knees. XD which could be causing the problems with my back and hips. Finally the physical stuff could be solved!!!
Back home. Pasty, steak chips, peas and gravy.
Think im buying another pair of these jeans. Been wolf whistle at twice this morning. Haha
right bedtime. up early. time for pain to be inflicted upon me....and no im not talking about a tattoo. physio on the knees. how fun. might take some pernod with me :S liquid painkiller. then ive got to get back and ring my doctors as im out of meds *facepalm* goodnight you lovey people. sweet dreams and pleasant awakenings.
part of m wants a cuddle...the other part thinks if a man comes near me right now i will tear his nards off and throw a salt and lemon mix on the wound.
well today is another good mood day. these jeans are getting too big. i can pull them off without undoing any fastenings. Also does anyone know what bus goes up to walton hospital?
might as well catchup on tv ive recorded. As i fell asleep early last night, i missed Tna, luckily i set the freeview for record so im off to go perv on some men in spandex. also, its weird having my phone being so quiet today. if o need me, you know what to do. laters.
Best get some jammys on and dry my hair. Got to blitz this bedroom tomorrow. Its a mess!
well medical over. just wait and see about results of i now. her fce when i said what i wanted to do to the psychiatrist ive got rid of. was a picture. Anyways, time to start thinking "fuck it" to a few things.
starting to feel nauseous now. hair is tied up, all prep is ready. fucking hate aftern appointments. not been able to take ny meds today and im in frikkin pain! 4pm fucking appointments ¬¬
I would like cuddles, kisses and a big glass of baileys with ice. Nope? Okay then.
sat her pondering a few things. one of them is one day i would actually like to go on a date. A proper one. never really had a proper one before. *goes off to ponder some more*
why is it i get people coming to me when they have a problem with thier mates, slag them off like mad, ask me for advice and then go hand around with the people they have just slagged off to me? In future people dont bother coming to me, i will just tell you to go away. in the end its always my name that ends up being Mud, never the person doing the slagging off. Save your two faced shit for someone else. Sick of that shit now. Work things out for your fucking selves.
Battery is dead on the bike. :/ fuckety fuck fuck!
The woman on this morning is an in denial skank. Not a very good therapist if she cant see that shes in denial and just looking for as much attention as possible
would love some cuddles....but as usual it will be one of the other pilows again
gloves oiled, meds taken (whats the point really? not strong enough and im not going to get to see the psychiatrist till 5th march!!! so yeah theres going to be low and angry statuses. be warned.) and American history X on the tv. tissue at the ready. Time for bed y'all! Night night
its stupid how close i live to town and yet i barely get anyone coming round. people only ever seem to want anything to do with me when it benefits them. funny isnt it?
thank fook for migraine relief. also i think my bike is possessed! come back from tesco to find all her lights on (shes under a cover by the way), went to see whats wrong and the ignition was in the on postion! :S always said she had a mind of he bloody own!
